lol I been busy posting poems and have forgotten to update people with what has been going on...the past few weeks have been very stressful and I have to admit that if not for some of my closer friends on here...my wonderful sis...
My dear little sis...there are times when I would call and be in tears and you helped me to see the light and realize things arent so bad as they seem...I love you and ty for being you...
Today buttmunch is going to court for protection order violations...I am sitting here wondering what is going on and if he is going to get jail time or what...I do know that they are going to make him pay for all the deposits that I had to pay due to him shutting off the utilities when the court ordered him that he could not do that...I know that he doesnt have the money to pay all the deposits...shoot he only works about 28 hours a week cuz he is so darn lazy to find a decent job...he would rather stay at home and download porn until all hours in the morning and nap as soon as he walked in the door...but the DA said that he is his grandma's baby boy so she would most likely do anything to keep him out of jail...which means I might be able to pick up the money this afternoon...that would help so much with me moving and trying to start my life over...
Geez the situation with the moving truck...I went to get truck and they didnt tell me that I needed a credit card...shoot I dont believe in credit cards so I had cash...can you believe that they wouldnt take cash??? They would take a visa debit card but I had pulled the money out cuz of planning to move so when they tried to put the card through I did not have enough cash in there to cover it...I begged them to let me get the truck and once I got back to Fort Scott I would go straight to the bank and deposit it BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOO...they wanted me to come back here and deposit the money and drive back to Pittsburg to pick up the truck...well can you believe when I called back the trucks were all taken and now having to wait until sometime today for a truck to come in so I can take it??? Geez what more could happen?!?!?!
LOL to make matters worse my landlord is going to come over today for a check out inspection and I dont have my stuff out of the house so they can see everything...OH WELL what am I gonna do???
Lisa has been out of school for about two weeks now cuz of all this crap and last night she sat and cried..."mommy I want to go back to school...I am going to get behind" OMG that broke my heart to pieces...most children would love the idea of not going to school but Lisa is an honor roll student and her grades mean alot to her and she is wanting to go to college...I feel like a total failure being a parent...I tried to explain to her about everything and she seems cool...."mommy its not ur fault all this is happening...I love you and I will always love you...ur the greatest mommy in the world" but I have always been the type that would do anything that my children needed...they are my life and without them I know, for a fact that I wouldnt be here today...they have been my strength to keep going all these years...
So once again its a waiting game...will my life ever stop being a waiting game???
