I don’t know about anything anymore....
Current mood: depressed
Life just sucks in general right now.
I hate the holiday season.
I hate change. Especially when there is nothing you can do about it. I was comfortable where I was at, now everything is being fucked up. Now I have a new job. Something I've never done before. I'm so fuckin scared about it, as well as excited. It's gonna be more hours, but at least I will get days off. I never get any days off with the job I'm finishing up. I'm sick of it. I'm so tired. I can never get anything done at my house. I never see my daughter.
I miss my son. Why can't he be here?
I don't feel right. Something is terribly wrong. I can feel that. I don't know what to do anymore, I thought I could do all this on my own, but I can't. I can't do it anymore. But in another way I have to. I have to prove myself. To everyone. I can't go back. I guess I need to make some decisions and make some sacrfices. I want to be everything to everyone, and I can't. Not right now. I'm going to go into hiding I think. For a little while at least. I need to regain my sanity.
