Red Cardinal's blog: "My feelings "

I am Nothing

By Robyn –

I am nothing: 1. No thing; not anything; naught 2. Emptiness 3. Something that is nonexistent 4. Nonexistence; nothingness 5. Something or someone of no importance or significance

Shutout –no longer a part of sister’s life - no longer a part of nieces’ and nephew’s life

Insignificant – told by sister life is not significant enough to bother with - not to let her know what is going on in life - am not

Obliteration –had true love – 7 months after break-up still love him –he obliterated the love

Zero - work has determined zero contact with coworkers and students

Extinction – special education students will no longer remember even existed in their lives

Void – feel huge voids in life for others- they do not feel voids in theirs’ - am really a void? Or just a void in cosmic space?

Crumb–things swept away and thrown in the garbage - many in life have done just that– swept away and thrown in the garbage – forgetting even exist

Not Anything –not anything past special people want back in their lives - no matter how bad long for it

What do I long for?

I long to be a something –

I long to be important in my family’s lives - every one of them

I long to make a difference in my students' lives

I long to love and be loved

I long to be a somebody -

But I am nothing