So it seems that everything I touch turns to shit, and everyone I care about, I push away. What in the hell is wrong with me? I hate thinking of myself, but, for the first time in a long time, I can't seem to get past a point where I can help anyone with out thinking of myself. I don't know what to do. I realized that I do care for someone, but, she and I rushed things, and I am hoping that we can start over, but I think I may have hurt her, and its killing me. I know I care for her, and I do love her, however, she and I did go too fast, and I think she and I should stop to think about things before going any farther, if we can. I do pray that I have not hurt her, and if she reads this, you are an amazing woman, you are so beautiful, but we did rush things, considering we can't see each other, and I am sorry, but I don't know if we would be as happy in person as we are online, and till we can know this, we need to start over as friends, and build from there, I am not saying that I don't love you, I do, but, we need to see how that truly works out.
