September 2003
As I watch everyone say
goodbye to you,
I cryed.
I cryed because all of our memories together,
When I go to the casket
I look down at a person,
Who touched so many lives,
I cant take it,
I have to get away.
While I watch the put you in the ground,
I yearn to be in your spot.
I wish the lord had taken me and not you,
After everything had passed,
I go home and look around at nothing,
You arne't here anymore,
Why should I get to be?
I get a knife and start pressing,
Deep and hard but the pain is numb to me,
I get a bunch of pills and take them,
Still nothing but the numbness of being,
Hurt and being alone.
I just want to have the numbness go away,
I just want you to be here again,
I start to cry and realize you are here,
You are with me,
Your the one preventing me from doing the
Idiotic shit I was pulling.
I realize its not my time to go
But how long will the numbness stay?
How long before i can let go?
by: Malissa M. Watkins
