Icarus's blog: "Somantics"

It is really hard being lazy when your dad
owns his own company
makes six figures
has made six figures YOUR entire life.

It was a bit of an epiphany though
like you have to ask that right question
and then I have to remember

I had all the tools and motivation I needed before the wreck.
I didn't lose them in the wreck.

I quit what may have been the best job in Topeka (fucking sad) because I wasn't happy.
And I certanily wasn't making enough money to not be happy.

So the whole idea was to look for a career, relocate and ... plant my boot firmly up life's ass.

But I lost focus.
I got hurt.
I got scared.
I got hopeless.

I had to remember why I worked.
What I was working for
and I came up with a pretty decent list.

I shouldn't expect to be vicepresident of new acquisitions by tomorrow.

But ... hey, maybe paying my bills with income instead of savings will be a step in the right direction.

What sucks is I have to make this happen.
Nobody is going to do it for me.

... so who wants to grow sugar cane on St. Thomas?
I could use a two income household.

I am the great destroyer.