There seems to be this pattern to my love life. I meet a funny, interesting, intelligent guy who I can talk and laugh with. The chemistry is great and there's all kinds of sparks. But once sex is involved, the guy becomes crazy or an asshole (or both) and I'm left with nothing but another failed attempt at finding some kind of companionship. It's the story of my life.
Before December, I was celibate (by choice) for almost three years. And I can definitely see advantages to going back to not having sex. Because recently I've compromised my own sense of right and wrong, my own moral code. I've let my libido make decisions that contradicted my mind. It's made me question my judgment and I've started to re-evaluate my decision-making paradigm. So I think it's time to just stay away from sex until I can trust myself not to make stupid mistakes.
