I keep trying to understand why people do the things they do. How could a father screw around and lose his job and then walk out on his happy home? And how could that same father turn his back on his kids, his own flesh and blood, just because the courts no longer order him to help out? How could a mother keep her daughter from her father just because she wants to show him she can be a bitch? Does she not realize her daughter will grow to despise her when she learns the truth? How could someone who claims to be someone's best friend continue to abandon and forget about their friend, especially when they are needed the most? I was asked the other night why am I going to go out of my way to do some things for some of my friends who are not there when I need them, and my answer was very heart felt and honest. I said it was because no matter how I am treated by those I call my friends I still act as how a good friend should. No matter how far you push that knife in my chest or back I still find the strength to forgive you. But at times it is too hard of a task and I have to cut all ties between us. I just wonder when that time will come upon us.
You know it is hard to force yourself to wait for someone you like, especially when you keep putting forth all your effort towards them. New options and opportunities arise daily. It is a tremendous task to always deny new things and keep your heart reserved for someone who may possibly shatter the remaining pieces. What is one to do when faced with such a defining question as this? Do you continue to hold out or do you jump in head first and let go of your inhibitions? It is hard to determine which will have a better and more promising outcome. No matter which I choose I will either be really happy or completely heart-broken....
What would you do?
