hockeychick247's blog: "general"

life is so frusterating these days. i spent the last year and a half paying off most of my bad debt. but thanx to the rules most of the shit will stay on my credit reports for 7-10 years?! r u kidding me!? so im workin with a place that helps get negative stuff removed and so far its workin, but im still not gettin approved for credit. i need a car real bad and i can afford the monthly payment with ins as well but NO one will give me a  second chance.  oh wait i forgot to mention i was approved through a place that helps with bad credit it was a piece of shit mini van (which i need cuz i take my neice and nephew to school) don't get me wrong i would've taken it but it just didn't seem safe for the kids to travel in and i wasn't paying 300 a month plus ins for something that wasn't worth it.

im so irritated cuz idk what to do anymore. no one will co-sign for me which i don't blame anyone for, its my own fault. but whatever happen to second chances? the fuckin banks got bailed out by the stupid govt. what about us?! where's our bail out. they need to forgive some bad debt and start givin second chances. especially since i've been at my job almost 8 years. thats gotta count for somethin. ugh oh well im outtie. thanx for reading my vent. ttfn  ~Lisa

it's true what they say...LIFE'S JUST NOT FAIR!!! i've spent the last year and 3 months paying off all my bad debt. i'm down to my last payment, and my credit still looks bad. it sux. and the worst part about it is i really need a car now and im tryin to get approved for a loan and its takin forever to hear back.

schools really need to have finance and credit classes as a requirment for graduation in high school. these kids don't have a clue what they're gonna get themselves into and the credit card companies look at them as easy prey. they rack up the bills and can't pay it back. more money for the big companies. it just sux. so here i am at the mercy of my damn credit score waiting to hear if i'm approved or not. i have no money for a downpayment, which i hear isn't all that bad, but worst part is if i get denied i have NO one to co-sign. ugh this is just unreal. im praying that i get approved but if i don't hear anything by tomorrow i'm gonna think i was denied. so here goes nothing.

 

ttfn  Lisa

about a month ago i found out that a girl i grew up with has a rare form of an aggresive cancer that isn't or doesn't go into remission. she just turned 30 and is a single mom with 2 kids. today we went to a benifit fund raiser for her family and children. it was amazing how many ppl turned out for the event.

they had it at this small VFW hall in our area and there wasnt a place to sit. the 50/50 raffels alone raised 1600 bux. i was so moved. and then she showed up. it was so moving to see her there. she can't see all that well anymore and her hearing is very sensitive, but she is the bravest person i know.

she isn't afraid to die, and isn't feeling sorry for herself. she has amazing faith in the Lord and i admire her for that. don't get me wrong, i too am a firm believer in God. but i don't know that at my age if i were in her shoes i'd not be afriad todie.

i will continue to pray for her and her family until the Lord calls her home. she is so brave and she's going to be remembered and loved forever. so please cherish everything you have and all that you've been blessed with. you never know when it'll be taken from you.

~Lisa

ok so lately i been obsessed with finding the right guy, but the more i thought about it the more i realized that he don't exist. i was seeing tis one guy for a hot min but he turned out to be a complete tool.

im the type of person who likes to go to the movies, play pool, putt putt, bowling, karoake, stuff like that. this guys idea of goin out was gettin a hotel room and fuckin all night. r u kidding  me? ! first of all im not lookin for a fuck buddy. second of all i barley know u why the hell would i even do that?!

so i decided its just gonna be me. while my bro and his gf are havin a kid and my sis and her bff are havin a kid, i'll just be the babysitter. its better than finding some loser who'll only knock me up and take off. no thanx. i want a real family sum day. i know my true love is out there somewhere and i'll find him when the time is right. for now im gonna just work on myself and see where it takes me.

ttfn ~Lisa

ok so i seriously don't get why ppl get married these days. if you're freakin out cuz u'll never be with another person for the rest of ur life, um HELLO thats what marriage is. its spending your life with one person and ONE person only. for me marriage is for life. you vow to love honor and cherish til death do you part. why wast all that money and someones time if ur just gonna go sleep with whoever the fuck u want?! thats exactly why im still single. i'd so rather be alone the rest of my life than be with someone who's gonna lie, cheat, or beat my ass. im good. at least i know i love myself. =o) don't get me wrong, i hope to get married someday. i've dreamed about the pefect wedding since i was like idk 5. but i don't believe in divorce. a marriage is hard work and u have to give it ur all before throwin in the towel. but if ur spouse is cheating on u all bets are off. on a better note a good friend of mine is gettin married in may and im so happy for her and so excited for her wedding. i only pray i can meet an awesome guy who'll love me for who i am and want some of the same things i want too. ok my rant is done for now kids. ttfn ~Lisa

ok so last sat was the straw that broke the camels back. drama drama drama. did i say drama? long story short, it was my nephews 5th bday and his dad is a piece of shit and not allowed at our house. all my sis did was ask him to wait til our parents left so he could come over to see his son on his bday to open his presents. (he was sick so his party had to be cancelled.) nope he couldn't wait. he had to start his shit and it didn't stop. he was such a fuckin piece of shit to my sis the entire day then later that night decides to be all nice and say hey hows it going? r u fuckin kiddin me? hes a fuckin bastard and needs to rot in hell. she is finally done with him. it sux that she's prego with his 3rd kid, but he told her he wants nothin to do with her or the new baby. k its his loss and ima make sure his name is NOT on the birth certificate when the baby is born. he wont even know what shes havin or when she has it. i've waited a long time for this. im finally gonna give him a piece of my mind if he starts his shit. ive stayed quiet long enough. its time he knows exactly what i think of him. its on bitches. lol whew glad i got that off my chest. nite kiddies. ttfn ~Lisa

after what seems like forever things seem to finally be workin out. im on the right track to makin my dreams come true. ive always wanted my own day care and now i think i can finally make it a reality. its gonna take some time, but as long as im paitent things will work out. i can get my credit in order and get a house of my own and be my own boss. i can't wait. its about time things start happening for me. and if i gotta sacrifice things in the process so be it. i'll be sure to keep everyone posted. =o) ttfn ~Lisa

ok so just some random thoughts for this early valentine's day. those of you who know me know i love to sing. my favorite thing to do is karoake. well my brother and i along with sum friends started hangin up at ford lanes in dbn heights mich. there is this gentlman there who is very nice, and also a great singer. yea he totally wants to date me. ok i'd possibly consider it if one he wasn't TWICE my age, and two if he were a lil thicker. he's a bit too skinny for my liking. no looks don't matter much, but u gotta have meat on ya bones. so my bro is sayin that this guy is so my suga daddy. im like um no cuz i ain't like that. don't get me wrong, he's super nice, but i like who i am. i go out to the movies, play pool, and karoake. im fine with that. i like to stay home and chill on the puter or watch my fave show a million times. i don't need to go out and have a good time. idk what to do. i don't wanna hurt him, cuz he really wants to be friends. i said thats fine. i'll see ya at karoake every weekend. um no he wants me to call him, and he wants to go hang out. im so not understanding anything right now. nothin for sure can go my way and it sux. ugh im outtie ~Lisa~

ok so lately i've been tossing around the idea of friends with benifits. those of you who know me know its so not me. but i thought i could do it. well i was so wrong. i'm not that type of girl because i deserve better than that. im not saying girls who have a friend with benifits are wrong. it may work out just fine for them. but it wouldn't for me. i decided when i was in eighth grade i was gonna wait until i was married to have sex, well that of course didn't work, but im glad i waited as long as i did. i know ur first time isn't supposed to be magical, but the whole time i thought this is it? this is what i waited for? WTF u gotta be kiddin me. im not like other girls.(is it so wrong to like porn?) so that relationship lasted bout 6 months and i wasn't that heartbroken that it was over. he was way lame and it shouldn't have lasted that long, but i didn't wanna break his heart. thats when i knew he so wasn't the one. i know exaclty who is and thats who i want to be with. if you're the type of guy who is only after a piece of ass, then you're so barkin up the wrong tree. im not tryin to be a bitch, but i know what i want and i wanna fall in love. i want a guy who is my best friend. i want someone who is ready for a serious commitment. im not like other girls. someone i can talk to for hours and not be bored, someone i can be a goof ball with, someone who i can make fun of and they'll know that i'm only doing it cuz i love them. thats how i am. im silly and goofy and i don't take life too seriously cuz its soo short. he also has to be a family oriented person. cuz i've wanted to be a mom since i was 5. if you already have kids, thats awesome. i been ready to be a mom. just keep in mind i'd like at least one of my own. most of my friends are married and have kids or are just in a serious relationship with kids, and i feel left out. they can all relate to each other. i can relate on sum level cuz i help my sis with her kids, but i don't know what its like to have someone call you mommy. i want that so bad. i never knew what it was like to love another human being so much until my neice and nephew came into my life. thats when my desire to become a mom became that much stronger. ok now that i got all that off my chest. im outtie. ttfn ~Lisa~

have you ever hated someone so much all u wanna do is punch them in the face? cuz thats how i feel right now and i don't know what to do bout it. i consider myself a decent person and even christian. but having these feelings toward this person isn't very christian of me. i have no clue why its so hard to forgive this person. i guess its cuz they put my family through hell and then some and every fuckin time i give them the benifit of the doubt they go fuck up once again. well NO MORE!!!! im fuckin done. there is only so much i can take and thats it. if i have to spend time with this person i guarentee i'll punch them in the face. it sux cuz they're close to some people i love deeply and i can't stand to even hear their voice. omg i dunno what to do no more. i give up. i can't do this no more. the latest will definitly tear this family apart. its sad cuz ppl don't care. they just wanna be selfish and do what ever the hell they want to do. so i really hope ur gonna be happy. i'll be there for you, but not for them. i fuckin hate them with a passion and that is NEVER gonna change. sorry i hope that don't make me a bad person. ttfn ~Lisa