hockeychick247's blog: "general"

ok so in case u didn't know tues is my 31st birthday. damn does time fly. seems like just yesterday i was in high school trying to figure out with to do with my life. i gotta say that my life has NOT turned out at all as i planned. and thats just the problem. i gotta stop makin plans and go with God's plan. he has my future planned out, and i gotta give everything to him and just let it be. it'll happen in his time. now all i gotta do is wait paitently. we all know thats next to impossible for me. lol but i'm seriously gonna work on it. yea i got laid off, but that just means somethin better is right around the corner for me. i have a wonderful family and i'm blessed to be a part of it, and i have awesome friends. so i pretty much have it made. so im gonna celebrate my bday this week and every bday i get from here on out cuz its one day that is all about me. im not one for bein the center of attention, but i like to take advantage of it once a year on my bday. so here's to a wonderful year. 2009 is my year. everything is gonna come into play for me i can just feel it. i'll be sure to keep ya'll posted. ttfn ~Lisa

so i was on my facebook page today and i saw a LOT of peeps i graduated from high school with and i feel really left out. the majority of them are married with kids. when will i get my happy ending? is it even out there? all i want is a great guy who isn't afraid to admit he wants to be with me for who i am. im so sick of bein lonely. im so tired of bein shit on. is my prince out there somewhere? cuz im beginning to give up hope. i'm gonna be 31 2 weeks from today, HELLO ppl im so not gettin any younger. ok so i don't wanna get married tomorrow, but i'd like to meet a great guy get to know him and go from there. all the good ones are taken. everytime i see an attractive guy i think hmmm he's nice, but then i see the wedding ring on his finger. or hes single and guess what its like hey Lis, you're great but i like you as a friend and i'll always be there for you. story of my fuckin life. guess what i got enough friends. i want somethin more. so i give up. im so done. ttfn ~Lisa

so today was a crappy day. not only am i seriously behind in bills on top of it all i got laid off today. i kinda saw it comin, but it don't make it any easier. so here i am once again gonna claim unemployment but for a lot longer this time. im afriad i won't be able to find a good enough job and be forced to move outta state. ugh i dunno what to do. if i can't party this month for my b-day ima be sooo pissed. i have it planned for the weekend of the 30th, cuz my bday falls on a tue. so i dunno. im outtie. ttfn

its been quite a weekend. friday was the anniversary of my grandpa's death. he died 3 years ago and each year is harder and harder to cope with. now i know that he couldn't have lived forever, but we were blessed to have him for so long it was that much harder to say good-bye. so friday was a pretty sad day for me. then sat was our family Christmas party and we had a blast. we laughed together and cried together and thats what we do best. my cousins have the best sences of humor and im so proud to be part of this family. poppy and grandma would've been so proud and i know they were looking down on us from heaven. my family means the world to me and i wouldn't change anything for all the money in the world. i can't wait until i have someone in my life with whom i can share my family because i feel so blessed to be part of such a big loving family. its hard round the holidays for me to still be single. im one of the only ones of my cousins my age, who still is. i know my price charming is out there and i know no relationship is perfect, but i'm willing to work hard at it. and thats the first step. i know i'll be a great wife and mother someday and i can't wait. until then i'll just help my sis with her kids cuz their bitch ass dad won't. fine with me. he can rot in hell. ok kids im outtie. thanx for readin my bolg. =o) ttfn ~Lisa