sweet tart's blog: "Things about my Dad..."

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My goodbyes

Saliva

Hey precious daddy can you hear me now? From the lost and found although your six feet underground. In the mirror, I can see your face just another trace of all the tragedy you passed down. There are times when I can hear your voice, it’s just like my voice and it still haunts me when you come around. I feel like I wasted time when I didn’t have you on my mind. I feel like I’m all alone, how could I have known you would leave me here alive. Oh my God, how did I make it this far? Why can’t I be where your are? My God I think I’m dying. Precious daddy can you hold my hand like you did back then? Can you forgive me of all my sins? Come to me and take this pain away cause its all I see. It would be heavenly to see you again. I feel like I wasted time when I didn’t have you on my mind. I feel like I’m all alone. How could I have known you would leave my side. It all was so simple then when it all began, and I was your smile. And now you’re just words in stone, you’re just dust and bones and I’ll join you there in time. Oh my God, how did I make it this far? Why can’t I be where you are? My God I think I’m dying. Oh my God why can’t you take it away or give me just one more day of just apologizing. How could you take him from me? Its like you spit in my face. I’ve got his grandson to raise, with no grandfather to say. Don’t let him end up like me cause he’ll be down on his knees, asking you where could I be. I wonder what you would say? I feel like I wasted time when I didn’t have you on my mind. I feel like I’m all alone. How could I have known you would leave my side. It all was so simple then when it all began, and I was your smile. And now you’re just words in stone, you’re just dust and bones, and I’ll join you there in time. Oh my God, how did I make it this far? Why can’t I be where you are? Oh my God I think I’m dying. Oh my God why can’t you take it away or give me just one more day of just apologizing.