826549's blog: "Family"

My life has been a rollar coaster. My relationships with guys have been a rollar coaster. But my last relationship with a guy it had a positive and negative impact in my life. The only thing i didnt expect out of that relationship was my heart having walls around it. I knew in my mind my relationship was over with this one person but i didnt know that i had closed my heart off to being open for love again. It wasnt until i got with my current boyfriend that i realized how closed my heart was. The mere thought of losing him scares that crap of me. I have never loved him like i had anyone else i have been with. But i dont want to go back to being how i was before him. who knows anymore. there is only so much i can say or do to tell him how i feel. It is up to him what he wants to do.