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Well doctor is ordering me a wheelchair but just because she is doing that doesn't mean I am gonna give up, what happens will happen but I will be putting up a good fight against it, I have the blood of several strong Blackfoot Indians that overcame many hardships many years ago I ask in my prayers for my ancestore's to give me streght to keep going with my journey through life .
Why is it so hard,can't even find happiness oh fubar let alone anywhere else. I find myself just wondering why no one likes me on this site I have seen people get sent bling alot when it's a good bonus for it but when I ask some friends if the could help me out some do,but a lot of people are very rude to me I know I am no beauty but I do have feelings it's bad enough no one hardly talks to me on here but I am still human I make mistakes as everyone else just I feel more alone then othere's on here.
I don't understand I just want to level up like everyone else does but I feel very hurt no one will help me I need to polish 9 living deads 93 cubes about 15 skulls and no one will let me except 1 man he is so kind helping me I feel so left out on here
It's so hard being on fubar now all these bling achievement and no one to help me, wish more people liked me but guess its true being a big girl doesnt get much attention. I only have very few true friends and I treasure then for being so nice to me,
Well it's was a rough Sept. not too many people remembered my birthday and the ones who did I want to say thank you,I still think about last years birthday then I had someone in my life but sadly we are no longer together it's been over a year since we parted but I still care about him and wish him happiness he has another in his life and she is very nice I wish them the best that life has to offer them. I wish I could be happy again but maybe it's not meant to be for me I have to come to terms with the honest truth that there is no Mr. Right for me on fuland or in real life.
It so hard not to cry with all this pain I am feeling right now........... God please take me now I don't think I can handle this on my own.......But I will keep the faith and handle it with God near me and my faith with him will keep me strong.
I have been asked what kind of pain I am in well I have a degentive disc disease it is very painful I have formed 3 to 4 permement muscle spasms in my lower back that will never go any 3 the size of golf ball and 1 the size of a small lemon when the flare up its had to get up and even walk. I also have advanced arthritis in my right knee and that too is very painful.
So far in the pass two days I have been blocked by three friends Ray, Big Red and now Raven1216. Its bad enough that I am going through having to take nitro for my heart now I have to go through loosing my friends This hasn't been a good month so far for me God why is this happing to me now
Hi, Sorry I haven't blogged in a while just haven't felt very much like blogging lately The past few days I have been feeling down my mind wanders and I think things that I shouldn't like if I die tomorrow will anyone miss me would anyone attend my funeral would anyone greve for me my life has been an ok one I have 2 beautiful kids but something is missing in my life someone to love I love a man I have know for a while almost a year now.He is my world thinking about him makes me smile and seeing him smile melts my heart I adore him he is all I want in life and I will love him until my last dying breath. will write more soon
Sandy
Like in that Rightous Brothers song Unchained Melody,A long lonely time
And time goes by so slowly And time can do so much,But how much time is what I would like to know Life is perious and all's I can do is take each day one day at a time like I said in one of my last blogs my mom and dad had congestive heart failure they were in there 70 when they passed maybe that would be me too but nobody knows for sure. I just wish I had someone to hold me when my time comes.
A New day begins
Well I woke up so guess it isn't time yet my Mother died On Mother's Day 2004 and It so hard for me That I never got to see her before she died to say goodbye. I did for my Dad it was tough I looked into his eyes and said this " It's ok Dad I will be ok you can go, you have many family members waiting for you, your Mom and Dad brother's and sister's be safe on your journey and always know I love you". My Dad was a hard working man and I miss him everyday. Mother's Day is suppose to be a happy day but so far it hasn't been I miss you Mom .
