Today I as late for work...A coworker came over to see if I was still alive. The pain that tears my heart affects me in so many other ways. My body hurt, my stomach hurts, its impossible to fall asleep. Once my body shuts down it doesnt want to restart. I appreciate the people around me who support me. I am sorry I let them down. For now I have to heal me. To Find a spot where I can be. Im not normally the kind of person to let people down. Always on track always responsible. I do whats right becasue it makes me happy. It hurts that I cant maintain even the simplist of life. I fail to maintain stability. Im not good at being weak. I need to put my life together. Before it ends.
