I feel like I am losing control.
Losing everything.
I'm lost in some sort of mist,
A fog I cannot see through.
I've fallen to my vice once again,
And breathing through it,
A sigh of relief,
Yet in disgust I cry.
I cannot feel anything,
But the pain I will feel is so great.
I'm losing everything.
I'm losing everyone.
I'm losing myself.
I can't hold onto anything anymore.
What once was precious is now shattered,
And now promises broken,
Leave me gasping in the dust by being left behind.
I've done it again.
I've turned my back on my promises,
And have taken that sweet taste back again.
I can feel it pulsing through my veins,
Dizzying me,
Filling me with a synthetic warmth,
A false love of an addiction.
I'm losing everything.
I'm losing everyone.
I am lost.
