I feel paranoid, uneasy and distressed. I feel him watching me.
that same feeling I get when I'm all alone, except he is there.
is he really there?
or is it only in my head.
it happens every once in awhile.
my body goes numb
my ears start ringing.
I hate this place
where he takes me, again and again
I want it to stop, I want him out
I can't escape, I'm bound
I'm am not me anymore,
I'm someone else.
why does this always happen to me?
why wont it end?
doesn't anyone care?
does it even matter anymore?
once there was a time where I was free.
I was me, and not her.
this being, not human.
I don't like this feeling
I'm torn into a million pieces.
The residue is beginning to be unrecognizable.
I don't know what is what anymore
reality and fantasy are almost the same
I can never go back, I can never be.
This girl, she'll never come back,
at least not in a form where people can easily see
she feels invisible, untouchable.
no one can really understand where this place is
only she can, and only they know.
They.
They are the ones.
They scare me
They torture me.
They hurt me
In places where I thought, I would never be.
In places where I thought were safe.
those faces, I will never know.
those faces, will never go.
Go away, get out, and get lost.
I don't want to be here anymore.
I never wanted to be her,
never wanted to be them.
He will always remain in her eyes.
He is the ghost that haunts me in my dreams,
no matter where I am,
he always finds me.
I really can't escape from him.
I try and I try, over and over again.
there is no place where I can go, where he won’t find me.
I'm cold. I'm naked. I'm bleeding.
the next day, will never be a new day
always the same, will always remain.
I can't cry anymore,
it’s made me different.
My eyes glisten in the light,
but never in the dark, don't be sad
don't be mad, don't show sympathy
just listen and understand me.
When I say, what I'm about to say....................