billerblueeyes's blog: "Enough"

Been a while since I wrote poetry but, the mood has hit.

With twists and turns I feel the burn, as I move along the road of life. I fall and cry and wish oh wish to sometimes die. I feel as though I have hit a wall way to tall. I need to find my way with so much to say. Do you hear me cry? Do you hear my sorrow? Do you hear me at all? I fall, I fall, I fall. So many things in life I want. Things to see and my will to be free. Do I dare take a leap of faith? Do I dare? Do I completely share my heart? Not knowing where to start? As I stand at the fork in the road do I turn around? Look around with nothing to be found? Do I go right? Do I go left? Or do I just jump and go into flight. Time to choose, so much to lose. To be free and live or sit back down and just be? This is my journey, my life my strife. Only I know where my heart needs and thats to let go and let be.

By: DJG

How do you let go of a love you know is so right and say Ok? How do you say I will be ok? Sometimes when you both love each other it doesnt matter. There are so many obstacles they can not be overcome. My friends told me last night something that makes complete sense to me. From Budah. When you have one foot in the past you can not step into the future. This was the most true thing I have ever heard. I am willing to walk into my future. To let my past go and live. To be the best person I can be. To be kind, loving and true. I am ready for the future. Unless you are ready there is nothing another can do for you. You need to in your heart say OK. If that means losing a love? I do not have a choice but to walk into my future and pray that it will be OK.

I have come to realize something today. No matter how much you want someone you can't change the past. No matter how much you say you love them, unless they truly believe its wasted words. People need to change for themselves. I am a strong girl who had endured many things in my life. I am still standing. Maybe just maybe, when you realize you can not change the past you can finally let it go. Until you can you will never walk into the sunlight. You will forever chase happiness but not seem to catch it. You will live in the shadows of others and never feel your worth. I have been deeply saddened today that the love of my life can't seem to walk into the sunlight and live.

ITS UP TO US TO DECIDE OUR FUTURES. YOU CAN NOT CHANGE THE PAST.

STEP INTO THE LIGHT, LOVE YOURSELF, LIVE, BREATH, LOVE

I sit here at work completely beside myself of the goings on on Fu. The amount of straight up unkindness floors me. Fu use to be a cool place to meet people. As of lately people only give a shit about leveling! WTF is wrong with everyone? People are begging and offering this or that. When is the last time you simple said Hi! How are you today? Geninely cared how somone is feeling? I think people need a reality check. How sad I am at this moment. This place causes jealousy too. I am feeling it myself at this moment thus the reason I have chosen to step away from fu for a few weeks. I am sick of it to be honest. The comments, gifts and bling. Its so very easy to hurt someones feelings on here. I am officially hurting and have no idea what to do next. I know that I deserve so much more.