I always ask why, when I should be asking why not? Why shouldn't a man get what he wants? ....Because there is a whole world out there that is eager to take something from you. They are intent on ruining your life for their own personal gain, and sometimes just for the sake of doing so. Even with all this I find myself being the person that I choose to be....someone that is willing to give instead of take. Although I must say that I am not perfect, I have many flaws...many which become evident when relationships disappear. But I always wonder why this happens. Even at work, people really trip because I am a different racial category...but they're Asian. Does that even make sense when the majority of the US population can not recognize the difference? Their deliberate ignorance is borderline assault. Yet this doesn't deter me from having my dream, and fighting for what I believe is the way to it. I think of a day where things are different, and the only way to do that is to really evaluate my situation and come to certain realizations. I will not accept my life at this stage of my life. I will give the world to my love, provide for my kids, and live my life knowing that I embraced every second of it. Because although I wouldn't wish the shit that I go through, on my worst enemy, I still embrace the moments. Because without the bad...I would know what good is. And there are people out there that will never experience the true essence of life, because they don't have the courage to love, trust, or be true to themselves. Ignorance is not bless...it prevents you from being honest with your life, and working toward a solution. I wish that people would realize that we don't have to get over on each other, just to get what we want. And as I look at the relationships that I have established, I see great potential, and I love the potential that something beautiful might happen.
