Legacy's blog: "Fight against the masses"

My first blog was inspired by one of the best days in my life. I try not to fool myself into believing that this is a world where we can all be happy, but for one night I let my skepticism go, and enjoyed a beautiful summer night with someone that has the potential to steal my heart. For the first time in a long time I felt that there was someone that had my back, the way that I so readily do for my loved ones. How do you let love go? I asked myself that for a long time, but I finally realized that if you love someone, but they choose to keep you outside their hearts... that is not love. The body, soul , and mind work in weird ways, in that emotions are based on a one way perspective that can be very deceptive in situations of love. Or maybe its because Im young, and unaware of the signs indicating deception. Either way emotions can be invoked even when there is no "genuine love in the air." Sometime you are deceived, sometimes you deceive, and sometimes you deceive yourself. Reality eventually, through the grace of God will set in and you will look within yourself to acknowledge the truth for whatever it is. And if you are willing to do the right thing...it will be done. "When your dreaming with a broken heart... the waking up is the hardest part, she takes you in with her crying eyes.... then all at once you have to say good bye, wondering could you stay my love, when you wake up by my side, no she can't... cause she gone." Not to say that I don't believe in love, because if I didn't I wouldn't go out and make an effort, but sometimes you can't help but to question it. To those that are blessed with the opportunity, it can be a beautiful thing. Sometimes its the most beautiful part of a couple's lives. Life after my first love. -An excerpt from life.

I always ask why, when I should be asking why not? Why shouldn't a man get what he wants? ....Because there is a whole world out there that is eager to take something from you. They are intent on ruining your life for their own personal gain, and sometimes just for the sake of doing so. Even with all this I find myself being the person that I choose to be....someone that is willing to give instead of take. Although I must say that I am not perfect, I have many flaws...many which become evident when relationships disappear. But I always wonder why this happens. Even at work, people really trip because I am a different racial category...but they're Asian. Does that even make sense when the majority of the US population can not recognize the difference? Their deliberate ignorance is borderline assault. Yet this doesn't deter me from having my dream, and fighting for what I believe is the way to it. I think of a day where things are different, and the only way to do that is to really evaluate my situation and come to certain realizations. I will not accept my life at this stage of my life. I will give the world to my love, provide for my kids, and live my life knowing that I embraced every second of it. Because although I wouldn't wish the shit that I go through, on my worst enemy, I still embrace the moments. Because without the bad...I would know what good is. And there are people out there that will never experience the true essence of life, because they don't have the courage to love, trust, or be true to themselves. Ignorance is not bless...it prevents you from being honest with your life, and working toward a solution. I wish that people would realize that we don't have to get over on each other, just to get what we want. And as I look at the relationships that I have established, I see great potential, and I love the potential that something beautiful might happen.

Good morning. In the calm of daily life, switches turn and friends are found and lost. Sometimes I truly think that I stir up chaos in my life, just to make sure I am still breathing. In my heart I know that I try to keep a place in my heart for those that have gone through the same journey with me, by my side. Evidence contradicts that thought, as I look around and see only new faces. There is no remorse, or regret...I would say its more disappointing then anything. But even still, I find myself not caring. I have watched people my whole life and have thought to myself that this world of selfishness is quite remarkable. It is remarkable because so many can be all about themselves yet interact with so many around them, and in that selfishness there "mark" appreciates the time even more. Yet when you devote time and energy, you create the "mark" in yourself. Giving the masses a target to take advantage of. Not to say that this is the end of my compassion...it is a realization that one must speak out. One must be proactive, not the word...but the action. They must think outside of this materialistic, self centered world, and see what we can do for the betterment of this world. What is a life...if you are not prepared to fight for what you believe in. I found myself trying to blend myself into the public, but no matter the effort I found that there are many things that I just can't do. I can not betray a friend, I can not stand around and let someone be harrassed or embarrassed by racial comments. I can not compromise what I believe in just to please you. I am what I am. Now is the time when I must do what I must to make it in this world. But I do so, with heart in hand, and a determination to prove to this world that nice guys can, and will finish first.