russell's blog: "dont hat noone"

confused about life now and probly foreever...i just wonder what someone like me cantfind a ladie.that when she meats me wont turn around and run...iv gaven almost all my heart away and have a little left it seems like all ladies ant look for a a real thay wont a thug one that will bet the crap out of them ...sorry i was rased differnt then thatand i dont cuss them out where is the ladies who will just wont to be cuddle and just talk...some one is out there looking for me if it is u hurry up and come...im wating for u till we meat my love ill be lost in this stupe world alone......

i cant keep friends the best ones i had turnd on me after 18 yrars becouse they done some stuped stuff and blamed me for it so that beat the hell out of me and now thay wont to come fore more and ant going to stop to thay hur me bad thay wont to do ganeworfar to take me out...im not going down with out a fight i know that im just one agents 5..so what can i do but hope and pray for sme help from somewere els but non is hereso i will fight on with my back to the wall like i have for so long...i had there back for so long now iv got to watch mine...well how know what is next lol...im not a fighter maybe it is time to move on...new friends is what i kneed

jain said it wright she said she wish the world would blow up...i kinda know where she is coming from now thankgiving was a train wrake..no one know how to act and i dont mean the kids and to defend my religion once again in a corner why the older ones told me i was going to hell it got ruff for a wile...and after thay started on me becouse im fater then them...i wish xmus would not com it will be the same thang again i pray fore my famly all the time that thay will love me for who i am my mom told me i was a mastake and im the reasion my dad left hur...so im thanking about leving so thay dont have to worry about me no more so i gess thay win im putting my tell between my legs and walking away if it keeps on thay call themself christions if thay are that i wont no part of itthy rilly need to grow up and thay say i cant get a girfriend then get merryed...and if i do thay wont no part of it thy might as well take me out back and shot me and get it over with..

just becouse im in the south dose not make me racist...yes i live in the south and loving every minet....we do thang here a little diffrent.and at a slower pace.im notone how hates people id rather have fun with aneybody no matter what race... if u are having fun and cutting up i love being in the middle of it cutting up with u...no matter who u are if u are gay no problem we all need to have fun but no tuching..im just looking for new friends no matter the collor of your skin