I don't know anymore! I just found out one of my best friends killed himself 3 days ago! 25 years ago we worked together drank together had fun played chess!! now he is gone and I will miss him.
I talked to him last week he sounded good, I had no clue he was hurting so bad!! he never let me know. I wish I could of stopped him I wish I could of helped! I will miss you my friend! I feel empty now I don't feel anything at all! I just don't know anymore! I am sad again, it seems I have been sad for a long time!! I hope one day I will be happy again...well that's about it for now!! Just empty again feeling nothing at all again!!
