Bunnie Needs 5K Likes's blog: "All about me..."

So I married the first guy I ever dated, my college sweetheart, in 2000. The last 5 or 6 years have been very trying for us, and I've grown up a lot, learned a lot about myself and what I want, need and deserve. 10 years ago, I was under the assumption NO man would EVER want to be with me, because I'd never been the "girlfriend" to the guys I knew, just a "girl friend" and I thought it was my lot in life! I was very naiive, VERY insecure, and found a guy that felt the same way about himself. The problem is, I grew up, and changed, and gained confidence in myself ... and he didn't. He knows he's good at his job, and is very confident in that respect - but in himself? no. I found a guy that made himself appear to be everything I wanted and needed and seduced me away from my husband for 6 months. I learned very quickly that I'd found another insecure mama's boy that was a total mooch, and came back home... That's when the real trouble started. I have lots of friends online, a lot of them guys, because that's what I'm used to: I was the only girl on my block as a kid, grew up on a farm working around guys, showed cattle, worked on tractors, drove a pickup truck, went hunting... you know - "guy things"! My husband now loathes any time I spend talking to these friends - regardless of their marital status or what I'm doing to help them (shoulder to cry on, girl trouble advice, doesn't matter - he hates them all for being my friends and having penises). I'm a scorpio, so I tend toward the secretive when attacked like that, just shutting down... He's even gotten violent toward me, more than he used to. He would maybe hold my wrists if I got mad, or stand in my way to keep me from leaving a room, fighting me back when I tried to get past him, or pull me out of the car if I was going to leave to get away for a while... he's progressed to the point he'll now just hit me, throw things at me, and leave bruises. He'll do this in front of our kids, has even hit me in front of my parents (who said I was the one overreacting...)!

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