I am so burned out. I want to cry but I can't. If I'm gonna die soon, I wanna die happy. I have done some horrible things. Some under the guise of friendship, most in pursuit of survival. I have alot to confess to, but He's not getting my messages. maybe Hes' given up on me. I feel numb lately. Well, I feel horny and numb. I'm a sex addict, I use physical pleasure as a subtitute for emotion. I have made some progress on turning that around. Yay, me! I don't think that my previous head injuries help matters any.
