Here goes another one. It seems that i am more confused than ever now. Why is it when you have such deep feelings for someone you are so scared to let them know. Me i can answer that one for myself. Being in realtionships where i have been hurt so much i have a tendency to just keep it bottled up now and not say anything scared of the reaction i will get and possibly make them run the opposite direction. And that is how i am feeling about someone now. He means the world to me and i want to say something so bad to him but beings we have both been severly burnt in our pasts its making me want to stay bottled up. And also he has me bothered on some other things. But thats not for me to blog its just for me to deal with. But me being confused is not a good thing cause i start to think all the wrong things and that is not good. This person has been my rock and my back bone thrue so much in the last few months and he is someone i am so glad to have in my life. And someone i wont ever want to lose. I guess i can just say it here in my blog not knowing if he is gonna read it or not but not sure yet. Ill blog more later.
