Alex cheated on me 4 times, 2 of them I didn't find out until a couple months ago. I cheated on him about 4 times, so we're pretty much even. He first cheated on me soon after we got together 2 years ago. I didn't cheat on him until a few months after we got together. Yet I'm the cheater in the relationship. I haven't cheated on him in a year. He last cheated on me this past February. His ex, Sara, has been trying to get him ever since we got back from Oregon in December. She was the skank he slept with in February, but he was very intoxicated. He told some people some of his problems about me before he realized that he could actually talk to me about shit. So now they think that I'm this horrible, cheating person. "Why is he still with her when she's cheated on him?" He cheated on me first! He cheated on me recently with that whore! Yet I'm the fucking problem. Everything's my fault, right? There's nothing wrong with Alex, just me. Instead of him straightening the mess out he caused he just tells me to not worry about it. How can I not? Even though he's not talking to her anymore she's still trying to pull shit, talking shit about me, yet he won't do anything about it. He won't tell her to fuck off. Is he really happy with me? Does he really even fucking care? Yes I'm VERY upset about this. People say not to worry about what others think of you, but he won't do a damn thing. How can I not worry? He still has a connection with her, doesn't talk to her, but he's gonna let her talk shit about me. I didn't have time to talk to him about it this morning b/c he had to go to work. All he knows is that I'm upset and it has to do with Her. Maybe the reason I'm upset is b/c I'm stressed out, or b/c I'll be starting my period soon, or something else. I don't know. But this shit's really bugging me.
Am I just worrying myself for nothing or do I have a right to be upset about all this?
