breathing comes harsh
tears on the brink of falling
holding a little angel tonight
making my heart cry for you
wanting not to let go of the gift i was holding
wishing it was your, ours
my breath catches
emotions flooding me again
washing me backwards
into the rocks
nothing to save me
from these tears
fear eats at me
trying desprately to understand
what i have no way of knowing
bottling everything inside
screams falling on deaf ears
feeling dead inside
only pain and fear numbing me to the simple joys
no lil man to distract me this time
no smiles or hugs or kisses
to remind me to breath
no one listening
no one hearing
no one caring
for these tears
silence is tragic
when so much distance is between us
no comfort found
only an empty bed
curling beneath the covers
hiding myself from the world
it is not like anyone sees me
just the illusions of someone they want to see
but when you see me
i feel real
but then the fear crowds my eyes
and your voice is not there
to comfort me
to reasure me
to give meaning to my empty life
my heart is yours
please hold it close
because i can not tell if you are building walls
or trying to tear them down
and my happiness lies in the balance
my life has been cruel
i have paid the prices for my actions
and now i wait
watch and see
will you come to me?
