thunder crashes
lightening strikes
echos off the mountains
surrounding me
not as magical as home
but nonetheless amazing
rain drops fall
and the thounder rolles
dancing its own waltz accross the sky
echoing through my mind
answering the questions
and releasing the anger
building inside of me
anger at the past
that i can not correct
anger at myself...
for wanting too...
the wind blows strong
running accross the tears i shed
waiting for my world to right itself
feeling like i am on a ledge
teetering, waiting, will you come
am i strong enough to withstand yet another storm
a moment in time
frozen looking into your eyes
trying to see what is hidden in your soul
to see if in the end
you hold out your hand
and help me back away from this ledge
who am i to pass judgement on you
who are you to pass judgement on me
deserving does not come into the equation
no one deserves anything
one must earn everything
love is a gift that we give
to whom we think is deserving of it
sometimes though it just kindof dawns on you
that you gave that gift without realizing it
that is what i did with you
without realizing it i gave that part of me to you
and you do deserve it
wheither we like ourselves or not
has nothing to do with how we see eachother
i see strength of character
i see the father you are
i see the love you have to give
i see your fear
i see your self loathing
i see your pain
i see your anger
i see how you look at me with awe
i see how you play yours songs for me
i see how moved you are by my words
i feel that you see me
the mother, daughter, friend, lover
the monsters that eat at me
making me doubt myself
and echos of the past
and yet you still love me
and I love you
i will fight your demons with you
will you fight my demons with me?
i may not know the reasons but i know the emotions
for the are the same with me
how my frustration echos in the thounder
because all i want to do is hold you
and i am too far away to do that
so you retreat from me
and i am helpless but to sit and wait
wait for your call
and now i will let the tears fall
because the rain will hide them
the thunder will drown out my sobs
and no one will be the wiser
of just how helpless i feel
at this moment
