Jesse drove to her meeting with the caseworker, feeling confident, for the first time, she knew if she just did everything the case plan said she would gain the custody of her children again. Cody 6, scared of being removed from his mama's loving arms, and Sarah, her four Yr. old precious little girl,7 born to her with a disability, Down's Syndrome , they called it, Jesse didn't care to her, they were her only reasons for living, and she 'would be damned if the State would take that away from her. They could not see how much her, and her loving angels needed each other, and their loving bond, right now they were at her mother's house, but it wasn't the same thing as having them with her, it was like they ripped her whole world away, and she was not going to let them get away with that. She 'tried to push the pain away, but it became overwhelming, and the hurt she was feeling, worked as a weapon against her, she resented all those involved, she resented her husband for pushing her to react to his behavior, but most of all she hated herself for letting it happen, and it came out as she talked to the caseworker, "what the hell does this woman know about raising kids, and how dare she, begrudge, Jesse, with the only two things, she had ever done right. Inside she felt numb, and she needed again, to kill the numbness, looking over her case plan ,it was a long list of things she had to complete before they would consider her getting them back. Parental counseling, drug testing, Jesse despised drugs and she had already volunteered for parental classes , when she found out she was pregnant with Cody, she couldn't understand what any of this shit had to do with her and Javiar not getting along, the only thing that made sense
to her was anger management. She , on the
