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Ahwatukee CoCo's blog: "Changes"

created on 05/16/2009  |  http://fubar.com/changes/b295577

7 Long Years

7 Years! Feels like an eternity. Didn't think I would wait that Long. Didn't think I would have to wait that long. But it's been 7 years to the day tomorrow. You can't rush into things, this wait has taught me a lot of things I didn't want to learn and Patience was one of them. Why should I wait? Why not rush into it. Hell if you fall off dust off get back on, right? Well... npt! Didn't work out that way. But time is finally presented itself, favorable self. If nothing else comes up then the 7 year wait will finally come to an end. Getting little antsy, hella excited, feel like it's my finally my time and nothing is going to go wrong. 7 Years! Think I might have to take a class to refresh my memory, yep been very long time. Made it this long so it's gonna be just a lil while longer before all the smoke clears and I doing it again!

life

 sometimes things happen for a reason. yea right! seems like some things that happen happen cuz some other person wants to wreck your life..... I got the results for my job status and good thing is that i won't have to b homeless this summer. still at the same building with my friends only thing i have different days off and start a lil later. that's cool for now. but pretty soon the rest of the machines will be going to another building so will soon b concerned again about where i will b in the next few months. if rumors are right then seems like i shouldn't have anything to worry about and most times the rumors are right and what management tell us is wrong.


on another note i did c stomp and it was so good. lotta fun and you interact with them. i had a really good time and i would see them again. i hope next year when we go back to vegas they are playing there again. i wanna c Stomp and Blue Man again yes somethings i can spend money to see twice. I would even see Lance Burton we are still trying to figure out how he got that car on stage....lol


hope you all are enjoying your summer. technically here we have been having summer weather for the last 4 months. we have maybe a 2-3 month winter no spring right into our 8 month summer maybe a week of fall if we're lucky....LOL


this year i don't have many vacations planned trying to carry my time to combine with hours i get next year.  we making plans to go to chicago for a week then vegas for a week then hawaii for i think that one is week n half not sure so i wanna make sure i have enough hours for those trips and i have started tryin to save so i can have fun n not have money worries. yeah nothing like going on a trip and being bummed cuz u can't do nothing.  i think that is y i had so much fun this year in vegas well the main reason. the last time i went with people that just like to gamble so i just sat at a machine n that is boring the other reason was cuz it was last minute n i didn't have much money. well this last trip we had been plannin for a year so i had money and that is a gooooooood feeling. o i think im going to california this fall for a long weekend. 

take care my friends sometimes you gotta get out n away take time to enjoy life.....

solitary~existing alone

i look around 4 u
ur not there
i call 4 u
u do not answer
i wish 4 u
u do not cum
i even rub a lamp 4 u
nothing
can u feel me
can u feel my loneliness
can u understand my sadness
can u feel my solitariness
solitaire is a game I play
but not a life i want

u rememba

hey do u rememba when we used to just park the vehicle 

get out it was so cold but we would go for a walk 
n hold hands while walking
i do 
do u
hey do u rememba when we used to talk all night on the phone
not wanting to hang up and falling asleep wit da phone to our ear
this was our version of sleeping together
i do
do u
hey do u rememba how we used to go to the park
after hours and play on the swings like lil kids
u used to push me jus to feel on my butt n act like u didn't do it on purpose
n i used to act like i didn't like it but i did
i do
do u
hey do you rememba when we first kiss
we were waiting for the fireworks to start
laying in the grass at the park on July 4th
i do 
do u
hey do you rememba our first time
we both so inexperience
we sat watching movies and tried to do wat they did
hmmmmm gotta admit it was pretty crazy 
i do
do u
hey do you rememba our first fight
we stayed mad at each other for hours
i went home so mad but when u called
my heart skipped a beat we made up as usual
i do
do u
hey do you rememba wat drove us apart
we used to talk about any and everything 
i thought it was all good but i guess you didn't
i don't 
do u

DAy 1

how they say that today is the first day of the rest of ur life. well 4 me it seemed like the end. i decided to get back to working out. yeah looks can b deceiving. i used to work out then i took spring break off with my son then it turned into summer break then it turned into fall break well u c where that went and that has been over 4 years ago...lol...well today i decided that i was gonna get up n get off the computer ok i was gonna start yesterday but it rained n i left the window open n my son hadn't cleaned up the room for me. yeah anutha

Relax

 
man o man do i deserve my two hour soak today. today i decided to do my housework, yeah the stuff i have been puttin off for the longest. usually i just turn my head not to see it but not today i turned on the music and just got into it. put on my cleaning shoes and took off everything else. good thing we have the 8 foot privacy wall separating the houses. open up the windows let the sunshine and cool air in. got up to about 85 today. swept the floor first just a hint of sweat sliding down the space between my small breasts. but i am still determined to not put off the cleaning any longer. i start in the frontroom move the stuff off the floor onto the pooltable i just covered with a sheet. first move the pictures and frames that are no longer on the wall. then goes the cds and the dvds by this time there is a steady stream of sweat sliding down my body. with the sun shining in the window my body is glistening. looks so good. o, i have a mirror that of course every so often i have to glance in. when i look in the mirror i notice that i have some white n between my legs. yea for some reason i am getting really turned on. i don't know if it is the wind blowing in the window or the fact that i have taken out the trash well, but naked except for my tennis shoes. any way i continue my cleaning. got the floors swept and now to mop them something i have really been putting off. o this is back breaking stuff. the sweat is really dripping off the tip of my nipples onto the just mopped floor. seems like a lost cause. but somehow i manage to mop up the sweat and then run out the room before i have to redo everything. by the end of the day the sun is down and i have manage to mop the whole downstairs, clean up the guest bathroom even scrubbed the sink n toilet. pulled out the washing machine, the dryer and even the fridge. those haven't been moved since the floor was retiled! o my body is aching so bad. really back breaking stuff so while in the tub soaking i am reliving the day and get turned on all over again. man i really must have gotten a rush taking out the trash naked. it is exciting me all over again. i am getting shivers and my clit is throbbing. even in the tub it is wet. a different kinda of wet. i touch myself and shiver cuz i know what i like! ummmmmmm getting excited all over again.......

The Biker

EVEN IF YOU DON'T LIKE US, RESPECT OUR RIGHTS TO RIDE WHAT WE CHOOSE AND TAKE A FEW EXTRA SECONDS TO BE SURE WE'RE NOT IN 'YOUR' WAY LIVE TO RIDE . . . RIDE TO LIVE

I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection outside the store as I walked in. I saw you; pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you , roll up your window and shake your head when I rode by. But, you didn't see me, riding behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our
leather jackets and gloves. But, you didn't see me, and my brothers donate our old ones to those that had none. I saw you, look in fright at my tattoos. But, you didn't see me, cry as my children were born and have their name written over and in my heart. I saw you, change lanes while rushing off to go somewhere. But, you didn't see me, going home to be with my family. I saw you, complain about how loud and noisy our bikes can be. But, you didn't see me, when you were changing the CD and drifted into my lane. I saw you, yelling at your kids in the car. But, you didn't see me, pat my child's hands, knowing he was safe behind me. I saw you, reading the newspaper or map as you drove down the road. But, you didn't see me, squeeze my wife's leg when she told me to take the next turn. I saw you, race down the road in the rain. But, you didn't see me, get soaked to the skin so my son could have the car to go on his date. I saw you, run the yellow light just to save a few minutes of time. But, you didn't see me, trying to turn right. I saw you, cut me off because you needed to be in the lane I was in. But, you didn't see me, leave the road. I saw you, waiting impatiently for my friends to pass. But, you didn't see me. I wasn't there. I saw you, go home to your family. But, you didn't see me. Because, I died that day you cut me off. I was just a biker. A person with friends and a family. But, you didn't see me. I hope that people will understand the biker community. I hope you never loose someone that rides
.

still have the rod and screws in my leg. thanks to two cars on the freeway!

N Time

So tired lately no matter how much sleep, rest, relasation I get. I'm still so tired. My skin is changing again not so bad this time don't have the dark patches least not yet don't want to get them again to me they are so ugly. Make me look scaley don't like that but not like I can stop it from coming just try to cope with it. Skin feels so dry no matter how much water I drink how much H2O, hydration is received. Change my lotions again, this one seems to work better but I still like the body butters I still like the ones with the sweet smells. My skin feels so soft after rubbing it on but its only temporary. But I like the smells of the strawberry mango, lavender, cucumber melon, orange truffle yes the sweet smells of deserts a delicious treat. Woke up the other day cleared my throat and spit out a wad of blood it was like I spit out a scab or something. Then I had to deal with a nose bleed. Bright red blood just wouldn't stop so I just plugged nose with tissue and tried to get ready for work. Still gotta go getting to hot to b homeless. Now when I get up my legs hurt. One is swollen opposite side of my fat hand. Its the leg with the rod in it but I don't think its the rod that is causing the swelling.

Still little swollen today u can c it well I can cuz I no my body but most people won't notice. For now the doctor doesn't think its a big deal but he monitors all the other things like my new growths an my blood count and how my heart is doing. Yeah strong meds takes a toll on my heart it actually impairs its function. Have to do a heart scan in a few months. Usually do that bout every 6 months yea the wonders of modern meds and the wonders of the side effects. My hair is hurting again. Yes it seems like my scalp is so sensitive that I can feel every hair that is growing n it. Its starting 2 shed too. I see it n the shower and now I see it on my pillow. Thats new to me didnt have that the last time. This time I have a lot of different things going on. I have scratches dont know how they get there I go to sleep n wake up all scratched up. Really don't notice till I shower and the water hits them n they burn. Maybe nutha side effect I don't know. Now i'm gonna rest again. Getting tired again. I slept most of the night and most of the morning it is now afternoon...no one knows what I am going thru I just laugh and smile as if nothing is going on. I keep it from my family and friends I don't want them to worry I don't think they would really be able to handle this. I think it's best that I do it this way. I just tell them bits n pieces the good parts of the doctors reports but sometimes I think they know better but they don't say anything they don't push me....

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