This illegatimate son of God, raised by the devil's coming back.
I'm taking hell over, then We'll march on heaven. Lilly said she wants to come along. You're all welcome to join the party. The world is OURS. There ARE no excuses. If you want something, you gotta do everything you can for it. I wasted my teen years, and the last few to alot of things. But I'm not letting it waste me. I fucked my life up REAL good. I LIVED, and had friends and to much illegal fun to be good for anybody. And it was fun, but a hollow life. And I learned ALOT going through it all. I stumbled without direction the last year.. barely abel to figure out WHY, let alone any reason to worry about a future.
I had made the first step. Fuck the past. and was living in the present. but the 3rd had yet to come. i was blindly living a day at a time, not worrying or caring what the future holded. doing what was fun when i felt like doing it. It all crashed hard and taught me the value of being happy for the sake of it. i lost EVERYTHING and should be in a loony bin. But I put a smile on my face and kept going, finally realising there was a future to worry about.. Where to sleep when it snows. where to eat whem i'm hungry.
And after getting so used and taken advantage of at my last place (i'l make it it's own blog sometime ;) Having a few people hook me up like that was totalyl welcome. I still feel bad, and consider myself a homeless deadbeat bum. but thats my dark twisted way of motivating myself to get my ass going and DO aomething abotu it.
I have completed the 2nd trial of what i thought to be a simple quote. and am moving on to the 3rd. Look to the future. I'm rising from the ashes of the lives I used to live. Hoping that as I gaze into the future I will see thigns in a new light. And out of nowhere Lilly pops up and has amazed me with each and every turn. As long as I can keep myself from building her pedastal to high, it's looking like w onderously bright and definately interesting furute. For better or worse, I know good things are to come. Lets see how me application to colleges around a few places go. haha. who needs to gamble when you can just live a little!
Damien Killcannon Vryce
the WarriorOfSouls
