Ok so I'm at a HUGE cross road in my life... *sigh* .. I've got a ton of mixed up, balled up, hidden as much as visible, new as well as old emotions running thru me.. I'm soooo unsure of things, yet sooooo certain of them.. I feel like I'm an oxymoron mised with a bit of schizophrenic!! I've had converstations with myself reagarding things going on in my life, and it seems to be clear at one moment, and hazy the next. I can feel SOOOO completely comfortable, secure, and warm... and in the flash of and instant, or blink of an eye be so completely alone and insecure I just want to throw it ALL away and run from everyone....
I just Can't call it......