did i ever tell you i'm broken. that i've always been. but i think moreso now since....
did i ever ask...because i don't think that i ever did.. but that doesn't mean i never wanted.
it all feels just like a song now.... lost on the mercy of the wind... hoping foolishly that flight will deliver what it's promised.
it's just night now, breathing darkness.. black drums with frail skins, praying they'll hold out, hoping they still know the lyrics.
it was a video i saw.. was overcome by.. hungry hearts, hungrier flesh., consumed with. but i felt it true, you must know i did.
just that pain isn't the symptom, but rather a particpant.
i loved it. you must know that i did. loved it like life ought to be. always knowing it would be rejected.
it should've mattered, but it never did. i should've long since accepted, but i'm still working on it.
stale bread, empty sandwiches.. they were taken, but never had.
not tomorrow. not ever again.. all at once i was both lost and found again..so much a star in the darkness... so fallen.
wished upon but never answered.. dreamt then woken.. leave me by myself to drift again....
