I took a hit of you,
and you took me too.
A part of me that'll never be.
Now I'm blind and cannot see.
-the damage left behind
-the messes of your kind
It had no right to be.
You threw me all your charms,
When I held you in my arms.
But I couldn't be what you were needing,
your accusations left me bleeding.
I quit you cold-turkey after our last conversation.
I wrapped myself alone in my exanimation.
I started moving on, no longer alone.
Next thing I know, it's you on the phone.
I'm back to where I started,
back to where we parted.
I picked myself up and started to move on.
To keep thinking of you made me a moron.
Finally it happened, I found someone to love.
She took your place,
a better face
for all my wants and needs.
And yet still my heart it bleeds.
When you once again reached out to me,
wanting something I could never be...
So I took another hit, not of you, but of coke
and I took another hit,not of you, I fuckin toked.
coke and toke,
coke and toke,
that's all I ever knew.
And the one I loved, left behind
hurt by me and you.
I've done so much I couldn't stop,
so much I went over the top,
and fell down to low
You'll never understand, you'll never know
I did too much
I'm not the same.
I'm surprised I remember my own fucking name.
Getting up every day, fighting this urge
is more than I can manage.
I've been 9 months sober,
and still I have Brain Damage.
