Ok, so I have had to sit at home for a few days now instead of working and I have been thinking again. I am having another Lupus flare up and it always makes me think of who would be with me.
So far the sad news is no one. I have tried to hide it when I'm in pain and can usually get away with doing that, but it makes the one I'm with mad. It gets old saying how much I'm in pain and I know that no one can help me when I am.
I have many medical issues and its hard enough at times for me to handle let alone anyone that wants to be with me. I mean who wants to be with someone that is always in pain and gets worse from time to time.
Shit I alone can be a lot to handle outside of my medical issues. But I have learned to live life to the fullest because I may not live as long as other people. I mean who would want to get with someone with an early expiration date?
