Ok so over the last few months I have been doing a lot of thinking of what I want in a man. What will make me happy in a relationship. Well here is what I have come up with so far.
I want a MAN!! Not a boy!! I want a confident, trustworthy, loyal and non abusive man. A man strong enough in who he is to handle me. Someone strong enough to be a bad boy when need to be but wise enough to know its not always required. To be strong enough to handle my strong feelings. To allow me to break down and be a weak female once in a while.
Granted I am a very strong woman, but I was raised to be this way. I want to know that me and my children will be safe. I want to feel like a woman next to her man. I want the freedom to be strong and the safe harbor to go to when I need to break down and be weak. Most importantly to have a man that won't abuse me.
I want someone that will listen to me when I talk, just like I will listen to them. Someone that will allow me to make my mistakes and be there to help me straighten up from them. I will allow all that so long as its given to me.
To be loyal to me. If the agreement is made to be only mono or to have an open one. So long as he stays to the agreed arrangement. To be honest and forth right about what he does, as I will always do. I have learned that lying is only prolonging the worst actually it makes it even worse. The truth always comes out.
I want a man that is confident in who he is as a man. I want a man to be able to handle my strong emotions. I feel things stronger than anyone you will ever know. I love stronger and harder than anyone you will ever know and if you make me hate, stronger than anyone you will ever know.
My main problem has been my ability to love so strongly. I understand that it scares people away. My intensity is what it is and to find someone that will understand that and not be afraid of that will be with me forever.
I want a man that can both be dominate and a little submissive in bed. To be a gentle dom to understand that I do like a little pleasurable pain in bed, but not all the time. That I do need my time to be dom in bed. That prolonging his release only improves things dramatically for the both of us. I am a very talented woman in bed but I need someone to match me or out match me in bed. That I crave sensation play more than anything else.
WOW, I guess that is too much to ask for from a man!!
