So it has been exactly a wk since my dad passed away I'm still having mixed emotions ... I know these will eventually go away ..right now my main one is missing him so ...his voice..touch .. and just him in general.. I can't explain all my feelings I guess I never will either but I think it is a good start to been able to write a little of how I feel maybe will help in the healing process.. I was asked by him before he passed what I wanted for my Birthday which is Oct 30 I now know what I want ... I want him back with me ... I know that can't happen but it is what I want .. nothing else just him ... this may seem selfess ..I know he is in a better place in no pain and with no suffering .. I should be happy and rejoice over that but the pain of losing him is still just to much ..okay I'll let myself get to emotional ..I need to stop for now
