Well what to say about a father who pins fault on you when you were not old enough to understand what was happening.
I know what to say. I hope it haunts him how he treated me and that he doesnt rest good until he admits he was wrong. almost 19 years and still he refuses to admit what he did was wrong. So without further adue (spelling?) here is the story
A child no more then 8 or 9 my dad walks in catching my half brother, who is like 5 years older then me, touching and fondling me. Being so young i was unaware that it was wrong. So what does dad do he spanks both me and him. Time passes and the same things keep happening. Mainly when everyone was asleep he would sneak in my room and do it all over again. out of fear of being punished i kept it all to myself. When i turned 16 it finally stopped because he stopped visiting dad. So today at 26 i finally tell my dad how he took my life away from me because i was scared of every man alive. I was afraid to get into a relationship for fear of them "taking" sex from me when i say no. Fear of getting in trouble if someone looked at me wrong. I told him that he had no right to punish me for something that wasnt my fault and his exact words were "maybe it was your fault" how could he be so cold, so heartless. I mean at 8 or 9 how is it your fault that someone does you that way. I have seen therapist after therapist trying to get over this. It had started going away till he says all that he said tonight to me. I mean i was just getting over the thought that i had done something to deserve such sick treatment. that i was bad thats the reason my half brother did such things to me. then with my dad saying that everything came back like a ton of lead onto my shoulders. Nothing could hurt as bad as what he has said to me. Then on top of that he tells me that my fiance should go back to knott co and stay out of his face. Im thinking WTF my fiance never goes down there. they never see him.
