nothing to ever be quite the same
an innocence lost, my innocence
the truth i was so determined
not to dig for, has been unburied
it doesn't only hurt, it left scars so deep
that life makes me have to deal with

yet i cannot help but feel
saddened by these memories
meaningless and pointless as it is
to beat myself up over this dead weight
trying to dole punishment out on myself
for something his crude love did to me

not loving me should have been enough
but to cause so much pain on the young
with feelings of abandonment and helplessness
at a life that stays darkened and sad
forgotten and lost in this chaotic world
how do i find myself with a broken soul?