How odd is it that I was talking to a friend on here saying that I hadn't had a bad dream in a while and when I usually do, it's the same nightmare but different in some ways.
Well, I had a bad dream this morning. Waking up way before my alarm went off for work. I didn't go back to sleep but just laid there, thinking about the dream and cried.
These dreams are always so intense. Why is it that I always dream of them but different in some ways. Now I mean, it's basically the same nightmare all the time, but at different places. Same idea. Same shit.
Just me being upset, frustrated with something. I always get into this huge argument or something. Most of the dreams leaves me harming myself or just when I'm about to slit my throat, I wake up or I don't remember the rest.
The dream I had last night, I didn't do any harm to myself. Instead, I thought of someone which made me feel a bit better and pretended I was being held by them for comfort.
I really hate these dreams. I know that I'm going to be in a bad mood all day at work. No really bad, but ya know...just down. Try not to think about it, I know.... but at my job, I do a lot of thinking. Whether it's good or bad, it helps me get through the day.
When I get too sad, I'll try to think some postitive things, which always seems to go to negative things...bleh.... So then I think about songs...even stupid children songs... ha ha
Man, I really hope that this day goes by fast. I know, I always do...but still...
Stupid dream....stupid peoples....stupid roar....
Okies, going to finish my coffee then finish getting ready for work.
