So i have since been to the funeral of my friend, and the day after had our general asembly.
It was revealed to us that the estimated number of troops that the government wants to send over is 20 thousand. The house is against it but who will win it is really undecided.
The funeral was well... As good as i think it could of been for a funeral, 21 gun salute the last call done folding of the flag...
Choice words spoken, On his head stone they wrote, wonderful son, beloved father and loved husband. Along with the normal things they would write, I wonder how many more will end up being put up before this god afwel thing ends.
I pray no more of my friends end up dying too. It was hard to give the uligy considering how close of friends we were, I had it all written out only to stumble on my words and fight off tears.
What angered me is outside the gates of the cematary were those Damned protesters. How do we let people like that exist? it took everything everyone had to ignore then but even made the honor gaurd want to do a 180 and show them what american made bullets do to dishonorable people.
Yet we all agree this war is wrong, we have no choice but to fight it is our duty. To make matters worse my ex still finds way to bring to bare her hurtful words and her lies.
It is not enough i suffer day to day because of her. Nearly not enough i admit my wrong and attempt to move on. When will enough be enough..
I swear i am near my breaking point , I feel like much more and i will snap and i dont want to snap i want to be able to be happy and lead some what of a normal life.
But how do i do that with others on my back. More importantly now more then ever she still claims herself a wolf , one of my kind but a wolf would never do the things she is doing.
I wonder where and when i will snap and lose it, i know its coming because i can feel it. It's only now a matter of time.
Only a matter of time.
