Angie...
You have to do what you have to... You can't allow someone to run your life. If u truly love someone, u have to let it know.. Regardless what ur threatened with, if you feel it, then it's true... If you truly feel scared for yourself, you should feel scared for your children, cause they are apart of you and you stay, then they stay in the same situation as you... Should your children be eventually put through what your being put through right now?? I know it's their father, but would you want a father to put you through that, or would you want a father to be alot better and nicer??? You have a choice right now in life... Either continue living your life the way it is right now or let someone replace what u've been through...??? Regardless what ur ex has in mind or is capable of, I'm very sure the TRUE guy is capable of taking care of things his own way!!!!!!! Don't ever let ur heart go... If ur heart tells u something, follow it, don't let it go....
Stop being a puppet in your own life and take control of it and make ur own choices.... please, it's not so hard or so bad.... The life u've lived makes it seem hard......