".... and You Lied"
Inside this frantic, chaotic dream, i scream.
Inside this box of darkness, i cry, choking, lost, alone.
Can you feel it? Silent screams slambing into your mortality?
Decaying hope whithers in my hands.
I can't speak, I don't want to think, and picture you.
Memories have become my demonds.
Clawing retched creatures that bite into my brain, numbing my will to be rational.
What made me believe a masochist and a distruction junkie could be forever?
My crime, my stupidity, was only to believe you when you captured me.
It shocked me to awake from a sleep that reluctantly stole me, to find the world still alive, it survived mine dying.
It survived my tragity and so did you.
You breath without holding me, you love without me.
This catches in my throat when i'm helpless to stop it.
Then i'm surounded by a madness that enslaves me to want you.
I don't know when i'll be alright.
I just know that deep in the night when i close my eyes, your mouth, your voice stays to steal my will.
I long to whisper to you in the darkness,"please, don't forget me.please love me like you promised."
Only what i really need is to forget you.
I would tell you "sorry" for the fact that your eyes are seeing these words, these feelings that you could care less about.
I would tell you "sorry" for any trouble that my insanety may cause, but really you have broken me, i am worped and tortured by you and you aren't even close by.
So, i would tell you "sorry" for interupting your day but i won't because i don't give a FUCK if i've bothered you, i don't give a FUCK if i've caused you any trouble!It doesn't come close to what you've done to me.and i need you to know that i'll smile through these acid tears untill the day that i don't give a FUCK about you!
