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Why do I feel alone right now? I have so many people in my life and yet I feel all alone and yet for no good reason.
I have some one i love very much in my life I love my fam. and I have some kick ass friends but I fell like I let them all down more than I lift them up and maybe thats why I feel so alone. I have done nothing to help lift them and I know this or maybe I am just empty inside and putting on a front of some body I really am not. I help people every day this I know but what am I really doing for them? Some times I wonder if I am really helping them or hurting them more and thay are just to affraid or to nice to tell me so. Yet here I sit with all I do still for some reason I do not know feeling empty inside, feeling like just a shell of a person that is lost, that has come to a cross roads and waiting for his personal jesus to ask him witch road are you gonna travel the road that is easy but always leads you astray or the hard bumpy road that will lead you to where you need to be? Yet I still stand there not answering becuse he has not come yet but I already know the answer but can not voice becuse I may be scared of the answer? No thats not it becuse I am willing to travel the path least taken. I have travled the easy path that turned out to be bumper than the right path that I know I need to take. Yet I am still alone in so many ways I do not know how to explain it. In just the last year alone I have acomplished more than I have ever thought possible and on a road that will enrich me more than I deserve to have, but for some reason it seems that there is a missing piece that I can not figure out to make this puzzle whole and allow me to feel that I am not alone. Yet I still feel this way. Yet do I really stand alone or are the people I love and care the most really there with me and I yet to see them at my side showing the road that I know I need to travle to gain all I have set for myself or have I set a bar so hi that no matter what road I travel it will end all the same? One I hope to have answers to all this untill then do I stand alone?
