It is so very funny how my life seems to be surrounded with death or at the very least the possibility of death! Yet I can’t say that I’m not used to it as I have had to put up with these things all my life! Lol my life.... now there’s a subject I don’t like!
Right now I’m getting ready to move to a new place just down the road a few blocks...... not that bad! I don’t care co sim saving up to move to Sydney to be with my lovely she wolf!
But I will miss my friends in S.A..... Sophie, .........SMEXY.......and all the others soo many that I haven’t had the pleasure of meeting! And it sucks as I love to hang with my friends but I went through a bad time and lost contact with them all! I’m trying hard to get them all back but there is a few that I was glad to lose as they where just using me, and I hate to be used...
I am happy today and I love it! This feeling is just so sweetly!..........so pleasant........so alien!!!........ I was dark once and well I’m not going to tell you just how dark! Only a select few know my past and understand what I was...... and some of those have turned there back on my cos of my past!
"In The End"
(It starts with)
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
Well what else can I say but I hide my pain behind a smile and kind words as I have been taught to do for years, my pain is my own and no one else’s & as such I must deal with it. However I am learning to tell people my pain even though most don’t want to hear it.. But then that’s life isn’t it? Pain is everywhere and one much just learn to cope with it so they do not burn out and wither!
Linkin park stoped me from ending my pain like a loser... but my true calling as a lycanthrope is what keeps me strong! The blood keeps the demons at bay and keeps my ......hot ;)...... what can I say it makes me feel very alive and mmmmmmmm everything is just soo tasty! But this calling is not for everyone and it’s not like I kill people like in legend I don’t! I just have what I can when I can and no more!...... the thing is only a few of you reading this will understand if I speak the truth or just a fantasy of what life I want to have! Confusing yet? Hehe..... Well that’s just another wonderful part of life that you have to get used to!
Now! I’m always here for my friends and to those that can’t understand this I’m not expecting the same from you! As long as you call me your friend and you trust me then I will always smile and say its all going to be fine, I’m just going through a faze!
So in closing! I’m a wolf! Always was and always will be! It’s up to you whether this wolf licks you or bites you.... if you’re nice I will give you everything, but if you cross me I will show you the pain a lycanthrope lives every second of its life!
Always watching within the shadows, Wolfie XxX
