I have come to the conclution thanks to some very good friends, that um that i need help and i am best to seek it.
I have been so afraid.. that i am going to do something stupid, Because it has crossed my mind so many times. I cannot believe i have gotten so bad so fast. Tho in past relationships i have had end i suffered alittle and moved on. I find i cannot with this, In a matter of about 5 days i have gone from great.. to horrible to suicidal to okay to horrible again.
I feel like i have lost myself and am sitting in the dark with no way out. The army pays for this... So monday i am making the call to seek some help, Perfessional help because
i can't do this i am so afraid , i have been threw some of the worst things imaginable in life... Including how many times i am not sure of almost being killed and never had this problem.
I am very scared.. And very unsure
Wish me luck and please keep me in you're prayers.. i think i need all i can get
