Absence
the absence of love
of the care that I crave
when you look at me and say
those three words
damn them
they mean nothing to you
never for me
the way that you look at me
why do you hate me?
I am your blood, your own
and yet you deny me
am I not good enough?
have I not laughed enough
or smiled enough?
Have I not good enough
or cried enough?
What do you want from me?
You tell me not to run away,
but do tell me why not.
I really want to know
Do you want to konw what I think?
Course not
but I think I will say it anyways
Your lying to me.
You tell me you love me,
and sometimes I think you do.
But you never talk to her the way
you talk to me
you never hit her
like the way my face gets sore
It hurts my heart most
when you call me those things
"I love you Lilly"
and even though I dont want to
I still
"I love you too Dad"
