Ladysadness's blog: "poem"

Live vicariously through Someone else Drown yourself in their world Pushing your existence down Embrace the fantasy life Escaping Surrendering to it Reality is futile Wrap yourself in every scene Blocking out The truth behind the mask Watching as it falls apart Trap yourself for a season Covering The bitterness inside Losing yourself when it ends The remote control of life Breaking you As you channel through time Searching for the lasting peace Step out of the fantasy Release the truth you hide And relish the life you have

The spirits' cry is a forsaken sound, Recalling the ail of a broken life. Suffering are souls from the burdens' strife, When emotions hide behind flesh confound. Woe greets the courage that's forever bound, Speculating a time when strength was rife. Once a spirit of light, now shadows' knife; Cuts the silence inside that is profound. But a wailing soul can retreat and heal, When mans' humbled pride understands its grief. Slumbering lives shall overcloud in brief, The true vision drowned in a hearts' appeal. Flightless spirits rest on wings of relief, While freedom lies in the cries we reveal

Your burning gaze, Sent chills up my spine For a love that's true, I believed all your lines Fed me your deception My heart's torn in two I can't reach anymore, When all I do is lose You ignited a fire, Passion running deep Move in and out of my life, Our vows no longer to keep Your games of love and lies, No longer taking the blame It's time to stand on my own, It's time to end this game I'm ready to leave, Another door's been closed I'm ready to live, I can stand tall on my own Moving on is hard, I'm used to being two But I can handle this pain, I'll be alright without you

I don't want to know That his smile brings sunshine That he shelters from the rain That his heart is pure gold I thought our love was strong I don't want to know How his glance is tempting How he's like a gentle breeze How his eyes are soft and tender How could I've been so wrong I don't want to know If his hair smells like a something sweet If he's a man like no other If his touch brings endless pleasure How could I misconceive I don't want to know That his love's an endless fountain How he's everything I'm not If you've never felt this fire Respect me when you leave - I don't need to know

Whisper in my ear While my name is said out loud Cry upon my shoulder While my mood is taken down Crawl upon the floor While my heart and soul tremble Listen to my words While the voices are in limbo Breathe into my life While my tears fall towards the floor Hold me as I shake While the knob turns on the door Leave me all alone While the voices just get louder Let my heart break While my spirit's drenched in shower Rain upon my life While I hear nothing you say Close the door behind you While the voices make their way Shatter my existence While the voice is coming near Cut me like a knife While my body stands in fear I cannot continue If my life remains this way For the voice is never ending And my spirit's gone astray

As tears mask my face and I think upon my past I wonder to myself has my time to die come at last? Tonight is ny night to choose to live for tomorrow to make it past tonight or cut my wrist with nothing to lose as thoughts of death cross my mind i wonder if and how to die i dont know if i can even do it i dont know if i can even try the end of my life is serious no more memories or future will tomorrow be more obscure i think i can just put the knife down and everthing will be okay i put suicidal thoughts in remission and i'll saveit for another day more importantly i wont do it for me it would hurt my friends true people who loves me who always have and will until the very end

I have no tears to cry, my sweet one I cry shadows and they drift from me To have you to myself would be my blessing I long to take pain, I long to take fear It never mattered how hard I fell As long as your emeralds never melted, I was fine,I dream of you and leave behind my world My beloved Beauty, entranced I've become How I wish you would feel the same It does no good to express these words My feelings seem lost in a strange abyss So I lay my head down now As I pray to hear you say you need me In the same strange way that I need you. ( This Poem is Dedicated to my one and only Beauty)

She sits alone,stroking her warm hair her nails are as black as the lining of her eyes Her soul transcends into the only way she can manage to speak, through the stroke of a pen against paper The world sees her as through a broken ray of light while she sees herself as a reason to cover up the sun People are so cruel to her, they can't begin to understand that she shines in her darkness, and her torments shines so bright So she looks out over the crimson water lifting her head from her speech for only a short while she questions weither or not to try to make them understand, then she looks back down because they aren't even looking at her to begin with.

KISSES AND WINE Let me drink from your mouth that sweetness of chalice I want to intoxicate myself with your wine let me taste the taste of you I want your lips to transform me and take me where I've never been feel me ..........touch me let me drink from you deeply and abundantly I want to lick the delicate rim of your lips and bite the edge of your tongue I need to quench my thirst for you In the center of your desire Be my sacred glass and drink me lips on lips ....mouth to mouth beyond the realm of mortal sin .....to the last drop of your kiss

So many nights I've cried, wishing I'd die I can't seem to find the meaning of my life. Why am I here? Do I really have a purpose? If so, what is it? Please tell me, please help me. I'm lost, torn on the inside. My heart has become no more. Your criticism has eaten me down to the core. I can't take all of this anymore. My knees go out from under me as I fall to the floor. You just took my heart out the door. You left me here, with no explanation, no reason, nothing. You left me alone and afraid and empty. You took everything inside of me. Now I'm empty, I have nothing left to give. I have no reason to live. What did I do to deserve all this?