Owl's blog: "Life as a Freakonature"

So, everyone's gone and made New Year's resolutions and are now four days deep into the new year. Some of these resolultions are the typical ones: lose weight, get out of debt, get a better job; others are a bit more wacky. On Facebook, my cousin has been broadcasting that he's going to see how long he can hold off on having sex. I'll be nice.

I've given up on making resolutions. Invariably, I'll get a week or two into it and discover I've broken it and get back to business as usual. I think the only resolution I've been successful with is the "lose weight" one, but now, it'ss safe to say I don't need to lose any more - in fact, I need to bulk up a little.

If I were to set a goal for myself, it'd have to do with the social life again. Although, in 2009, I kept trying to put myself out there, thinking I'd make some friends. It turned out horribly wrong, unfortunately. I ran into at least three people I used to talk to and then realized why I don't anymore. Sadly, these were Fubar members I had some sort of involvement with previously.

The alternative: don't meet anyone and stay out of the game completely? Well, I don't know. It's still kind-of lonely out here, and things are even more empty now that I'm out of work, too. I spent this past New Year's eve in a car, driving to St. Louis just to get a White Castle hamburger.

I'm not sure how to handle this. And, of course, it's not really everyone else's problem. I look at the bar tab here on Fubar and see people managing to hook up all the time - guess that's Fubar working as intended.

2010 is my crossroads year. I'm going to be 35 this April. My lease ends June 30. Either the Dallas area finishes strong, or I finally get off my behind and go somewhere it will work out. I'm getting too old to float around anymore.