-Happy birthday dearest Tammy, she isn't reading this, but I love her and she's been one of the most amazing people in my life.
-I had a important chat with a now friend about getting clarification on how to proceed to how I want things with the person I want to spend my future with. I'm currently taking her advice, and meditating, trying to channel the negative energy away from me and turn this around in a respectable way. Basically, I'm deciding to take the high road (the road I'm most familiar with) and try to build a clean slate with someone who may not like me like I've suspected. Regardless, I must this to get beyond the wall w/ the person I do care about, and I'm doing this on the operation that I care about her. If this other person isn't for real, stuff like that can't stay hidden. I'm just going to open up the door in a way I didn't think I was able and see if karma will reward me.
I'm adopting a new mantra in the meantime..."not much longer."
I'm eager for my rainbow and new start.
xox,
Bam
