you know, i just dont find life fulfilling anymore. i find myself worrying about the little things too much, and not having much fun. something needs to change, but i dont know what. some things are just kinda fucked up. i sit here day after day, doing nothing with my life cept drinking or smokin. it may not seem like it, but i do want to be somebody, i do want to make a difference. its just that in this world today, i dont know if its even possible. all i know is i want more out of life then mediocre, and even if some things were to change, most never would. part of this is because i hold out for oppurtonities that never come instead of going out and grabbing them. all i do every day is put up with the same old bullshit, with a few minor details changed. i dunno, maybe im holding out for too much, maybe ill never be someone important, maybe ill always just be "one of the guys" or "just some guy i dated for awhile" or worse, "who?" i dont know, but i dont think im getting any answers anytime soon. My favorite phrase says it all, its better to burn out than fade away.
